Fright night in dreamland
Last night was "fright night" in dreamland. One dream involved me talking to several family members around a dinner table about a Monte Carlo simulation I wrote, and asking them what they thought the answer was. I specifically remember my mom's mother being there (my grandmother, who passed away about 15 years ago).
As I was giving my explanation, my dad (he passed away 16 years ago) more or less burst into the room and asked what we had done. While we were busy talking, someone had stolen things from the other room, including my laptop and other expensive things.
"Should I become a monk?"
Last week, during my yoga retreat, I started thinking about whether I should make the commitment to being a monk. In many ways I already feel like I live the life of a monk, or something close to it, so I think it's a reasonable thing to think about.
During the week I started reading a book I brought with me by Zen Master Seung Sahn (ZMSS), titled "Only Don't Know", and as I read through the book I ran into a chapter on this issue of whether or not someone should become a monk. Fortunately ZMSS's answer was very straightforward, and I can say this is no longer an issue or concern of mine.
Lucid, erotic dream
After practicing yoga twice a day for roughly the last 10 days, and not indulging in energy-sappers like working overtime or indulging in alcohol, my lucid dreams returned with a series of erotic, lucid dreams this morning. (Not anything I planned, but I'm also not complaining.)
I've been sleeping on my couch the last week or two, and when I gained consciousness in this dream, I was still on a couch, but the surroundings were different. I'll skip the details, but the most important technical point was when the dream went from "lucid dream" to "wait, I can feel things in this dream", including a woman who came over and sat on me (jokingly) while I was laying on the couch. When she sat on me the physical sensation was perfectly real, as was her voice, along with other sounds in the dream. Later on another woman sat on the couch next to me, and when she did I could "feel" the couch sink in where she sat down.
Boys playing baseball, helicopter, and a snake
In an earlier dream ... I ran into a bunch of boys somewhere ... don't remember much ... I end up teaching them how to play baseball. They think they're hotshots, and I show them how bad they really suck. This leads into me coaching them.
Then local firefighter guys come over a building in helicopters ... they're drinking, fooling around, and doing dumb things ... I have a video camera, and I start recording them, and that infuriates them.
Problems with "reality"
I'm starting to have a problem with "reality" again.
At a holiday party/gathering last night, I sat at the dinner table, and just thought "None of this is real, screw it." I wanted to get up and leave, or at least walk away, but for some reason -- maybe so I didn't scare some of my younger relatives -- I didn't. But something about this "normal", human life just isn't right, and I know it.
After the gathering I went home, a little sad on a variety of levels, and decided to drink some mojito coolers I've had in the refrigerator for a while, to wash away the sadness. Then, before going to bed, even though I didn't want to do it, I shuffled the deck of cards with my eyes closed, and placed the top card from the deck face side up.
As I turned and walked away, still with my eyes closed, I had a very clear impression that the card suit was spades, and it wasn't a face card, it was a numbered card. How many numbers? Four? No, it was more than that, more like six, maybe eight, but not as many as ten. (Unlike an OBE, where I actually see the number and suit, here I only had an impression of the number of spade images on the card.)
Taking a ferry to an evil place
After Thanksgiving gathering, drank some champagne so I could get some sleep tonight. First dream, I'm swimming near an ocean, and there's a huge wave, running parallel to the ocean shore, and there's a second one, coming right at us.
Next thing I know I'm in the water with two other people, and we're surrounded by all these cars. We say something like "Finders keepers, let's get them to the shore." But then I woke up.
